BORING POST AHEAD.

i think after so long. i think its time for me to do a proper blog entry about what has been going on the past few days rather than typing weird sappy stuff about dot dot.

yesterday was hell. as you all might know. or maybe i wasnt clear enough.

nicky pissed me off. nothing new. it seems that he always have a reason to get on my nerves. for once, be honest about what you feel and admit it. there are reasons why i dont want to get too close. but i'll still be a friend. class was alright listening to rosey's flirting lessons. so i moved and sit next to ben. trying my desperate hardest to make a conversation.

he said that something might come out of nothing.

i hope hafizah is alright. i'll hold your hand through the tears if you need me there. its alright to see the tears. its alright. its alright to cry. like a friend who told me once. it doesnt mean you're less of a person. it just means you're human.

somehow the past catches up with you.

work. two new people. from china. i had to speak chinese. and train one of them in EB. and jaime and to train the other one in IB. they couldn't understand the words that were coming out of my mouth. and i couldn't understand the words that were coming out of their mouths.
joy.
ian was being a nervous wreck. running all over the place. which scared the hell out of me. i had to be busy for well over 4 hours before i can have my break. at 11 plus in the night. see what i mean? but break was good because ian made sandwiches for me. and confessed that he's never cooked for his girlfriend before. aren't i fortunate? and a hug perked me up for the rest of closing the bloody shop with two people who cant understand the words that are coming out of my mouth.

i keep checking my phone to see if you've missed me.


i'd kill for another day with you.

and i almost watched the simpsons today did i mention. i asked ben out to go with me. asked me if it was a date. but whats new? he had no money. quite a turn off actually. i think he should go work or something. but like he said. it wouldnt be a good idea. he has FYP and track training. and a life. so i guess there isnt time to fit work in. unlike me.
and i wont be an angst piece of shit.

i'd follow you until the ends of the world as well.

i sent him a uber long message. that i'll still be proud of him. even though he might come in last. at least he finished the race. at least he didnt give up. but if he does enter IVP. i dont want him to enter thinking that he'll lose. even though i'm a pessimist. i'm optimistic for other people.
i'm that kind of person.

okay, i think i should stop here.
let me go enjoy josh whatever hs name is.
a date with tad hamilton! (that would be him for me)